CYCLES - LIFE AND DEATH, REPEAT

[dass]

Thinking of evilyoshida is a mellowing thing, since it's gone up and down...and down again. I realize existence, human existence is like this no matter how you think or who your higher power is. Life goes on...EY isn't the piece that's missing., it's just a memory, a cycling of sorts. A cycling of memory. But I must say try to grasp the thing that is forward and not be in trap of grasping something backwards, like the tragic antihero Gatsby. Or that tragic Greek figure of mythology Sisyphus who was fated by the gods to roll a heavy rock up a hill only when he got to the top the rock rolled down again and Sisyphus had to repeat the procedure over and over again...what I'm saying here in this forum I have a chance to cycle things without recycling.
..i don't intend to push the rock up the hill on this forum, BUT I will stay up on the hill one way or another and break through, hopefully you will be there as well, and see the the other side as related newly with mine own eyes.

[Masato]

I read that Gatsby book once just to see what the fuss was all about.

I thought it was terrible. All the characters were rich whiny gossip wankers that I would never hang out with.

As far as memory, some friends of ours recently lost their 15 year old son. I also try to think how Life goes on, and the impermanence of everything... but that doesn't necessarily cure the trauma.

I agree about moving forwards not backwards.
That's why I left EY lol

[Som-Pong]

Rich whiny gossip wankers just sounds like westerners to me. I’ve read it a couple of times.

[Masato]

What did I miss? What did you get from it, worthy of reading multiple times?

If there was a message to it, either I was too young/poor to grasp it at the time, or there are more interesting ways to illustrate it

There wasn't even any Kung Fu FFS

[dass]

Yes with EY I'm not trying to grasp it backwards anymore, I'm letting go, go forward. Fitzgerald's Gatsby is trying to grasp back a long lost love thinking by changing his name and amassing a lot of illegal money (just like that bitcoin fund manager who lost it all) to get that memory back. The last paragraph of the novel stresses you can't get it back which is essential a dream, a fantasy, a time travel trick which actually is a tragic trick that is still happening and churning in many peoples' lives still. It's a trap, like love is a trap, a mortgage is trap, a forlorn touch of the flesh is a trap...but people still fall into it and, like Gatsby they still flail their oars against the current, losing ground while thinking they're so close...close enough to touch thinking in a masturbatory fever they'll get it the next time.

But EY, I'm letting go for now.

[Masato]

sounds like you're still hangin on to me lol

That place was a sickness

[Som-Pong]

Yeah, that about sums it up. I prefer everything falls apart though

[Masato]

Whatever falls apart, new things grow.

I do miss the social aspect of EY, it was fun but in the end I was wasting way too much precious time there. Was good for daily info but also way too much bullshit and tinfoil fear porn imo.
The alt situation was disturbing too imo. Once I started seeing EY talking to himself for months on end it all got kinda creepy lol

I'm trying my best to keep things real these days. Real life. Choose my battles. What info is relevant to my actual life, vs what is unknowable fantasy useless theorizing.
A lotta fat was cut. I think I'm better for it.

This place would be fun if it got a little busier but when it's quiet I can get on with my day lol

Good luck with your EY withdrawl symptoms Dass, I hope you feel better soon

What else are you up to? What part of the world do you live?
Be well

[Masato]

I am however grateful to EY.com for inspiring the book Ben and I made. That was good fun.

Some folks here are pushing me to do a Canada version with Truckers etc lol
If I had the time I would. Life so busy though man, barely have time for current projects

and of course grateful to EY.com for some of the company I've grown to respect. Som, Mega, Diet Butcher, penxv etc
Kind of amazing how many years we've been sharing thoughts about things

I still plan to hit up Mega one day as I sometimes travel through his hood, it's a favourite spot of mine.
If I'm ever in Thailand I hope to drink with Som

If I get really rich one day I'll fly everyone somewhere for a party

[Som-Pong]

Irie
I’m quite boring without the hard liquor. Lot more stable though.